Reaching out because of life

There has been countless times in my life when all I felt was a crippling feeling of loneliness. I was a child of deeper and very strong feelings of this. My parents was never home, my so called friends hurt me with words and physical haunting. It caused me to be an introverted kid that was shy and afraid of other kids my age. The only person in my life that always made me feel self worth, pride(but not boastful) and genuine trust even when I felt it was not there. I had a new sense of belonging by becoming a strong leader, brave, and accepting and that not everyone feels the same way. In retrospect, I became an angry and confrontational young man. After my grandfather passed, I started having my bouts of mental illness. I resisted treatment because at that time all I received out of it was a zombie like trance from severe amounts of terrible drugs(ie. Thorazine, haldol at some of the highest dosages) It was a long hard road to follow. Everything that was to make me feel better was worse. The one thing I did see was others like me. I always did my best at speaking to the patients(sometimes too much mania) Throughout those years I began to see just how lonely most patients were. It helped me to feel like I belonged with them. Not in an institution but in life. All the while I was abusing drugs and alcohol, I resisted treatment, self-medicated constantly, but I was still feeling lonely so I decided to meet a hospital friend with a serious depression or other issues. Eventually I knew I could do the same outside of my familiar environment. I now actively make conversation with those I see lonely. I feel as though a simple act of starting a blog, support group, and writing a book on my journey. I strongly believe now that if we stick together as peers in our situations. It will make it easier for others. So just know that you are not alone. We all(not just mentally ill)are the same. We all feel those feelings like happiness, loneliness, guilty, anger AND love!!!  See for yourself it helps. Peace to all of humanity!!